I talk, u Listen

English Man

2010-06-14T21:45:00.000-07:00

This story is kinda lame..
Just try to understand the message i trying to bring here..
Do not assume!

The monkey trap story

2010-06-12T05:45:00.000-07:00

This is a story taken from the 'Dharma Story Cards' i got from the
Buddhist association i attend in PLKN. This is not only a story related to Buddhism,
it can be related to many area in our living depending how we interpret the story.
Hope everyone learn something from this story.

Attitude towards learning

2010-06-08T22:05:00.000-07:00

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2010-04-01T03:29:00.000-07:00

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2010-04-01T03:28:00.000-07:00

Correction:E-commerce submission is on 23rd April

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2010-03-23T21:58:00.000-07:00

Stupidity fall under strength because usually stupid people are humble,
have good attitude towards learning. This kind of attitude allow them to grow faster than the other.

Smartness is a weakness because smart people usually are arrogant,
thinking that they're the best and not willing to learn..

I see hardwork as an opportunity. No matter who are u, born with natural talent
or born with low IQ, as long you willing to work, you can do what you want.

Laziness could be a threat because there are much that we can do but we are refrained
from achieving what we want because we are lazy to work. Nothing come free in this world.

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2010-03-20T20:15:00.000-07:00

2009-12-07T13:06:00.000-08:00

No doing so well this trimester.
Gotta summit assignment on next Monday,
Got little time left for revision.
Gotta put in more effort into studies.
May God bless everyone who is having difficult time right now.
Thanks.

Multitasking is inefficient

2009-11-21T23:18:00.000-08:00

Definition of efficiency:
“Judgements of efficiency are based on some idea of ‘wastage’. A relatively efficient process either requires fewer inputs or produces more outputs compared to a similar process, to achieve the objectives of the process. Click here

Multitasking means ability to work more than one task at a time.
If that so, why do multitasking is inefficient?
First of all, i wanna stress that we are only humans.
Human have limitation.
After measuring all the basic necessity like food and shelter,
We have to consider on love, security, and entertainment.
Multitasking is very inefficient in long run.
When we do perform many tasks at a time, tend to need longer time to complete each tasks.
We are more tired mentally and physically.
Then tend to need more rest to fully recover.
When you are doing a task, it's good to finish the whole task before taking a long break,
rather than taking short break in between because our mental cannot accept the fact that
we are away from the our task. Thus, our brain cannot fully relax because we worries.
To avoid inefficiency, it's good to focus in everything we do.
When you work, be sure 100% in work.
When you play, play 100%.
Do not work and play.
Multitasking is inefficient.

2009-11-20T17:29:00.001-08:00

2009-11-08T17:42:00.001-08:00

Re-post.

No, books will never take you far.

2009-11-08T13:11:00.001-08:00

My exam result for this trimester is satisfactory.
I know this isn't enough.
Books will not take you far.
Books are important but
We need more than what the book can teach.
As for me,
I just hope that God will grant me a golden chance to learn more
as i really don't know what i am capable of...
I need chance which i do not know where i could find it.
Oh God.
Please show it to me and grant me the greatest strength and power of will to success.
Thank you.

Big mouse eat big cheese, small mouse eat bullshit.

2009-11-07T03:46:00.000-08:00

Read the title and understand it.
The message that i trying to bring here is,
If wanna achieve something big, make sure that you're very strong.
Rich people often make money with money.
Poor people never have enough money for anything.
That's why rich people are getting richer and
the poor are getting poorer.

2009-10-29T05:56:00.001-07:00

I'll try not to let fear interfere my actions.

Planning

2009-10-01T10:22:00.000-07:00

You can come out how many plans you want and;
plan for no matter how much time ahead;
but there is one problem.
Are you going to carry out your plans?

One thing bout planning:
Do not just plan for yourself,
Plan for others so that no one interfere your plans.

2009-09-28T12:36:00.000-07:00

Has been away for far too long..
Time pass so fast.
Have been very busy but don't know what have been done..
Seriously feel old now.
Taken 2 exam paper today.
3 more to go.
Really long for a good rest.

2009-08-25T10:08:00.000-07:00

Last month, i have had a moral presentation and the topic of the project is abortion.
I am not going to post a video on the presentation or any slide.
I found a very interesting video while i was working on the presentation.
Here it is. Listen and understand the lyric.

Abortion, Never - Watch the best video clips here

Mock Meeting Sample.

2009-08-14T20:14:00.000-07:00

Partners, refer to this pls.

2009-07-10T10:38:00.000-07:00

What is 'punctuality' mean to you?
To me being punctual is keeping our promise.
Promise to be there at 8am but reach there at 8.30am for example.
This is our Malaysian culture.
What if you're the one who reached the place first and waited for 30minutes?
Happy?
Think bout it.

2009-05-07T07:57:00.000-07:00

Sorry. I don't mean to disrespect female.
I really don't mean it.
But i do mean what i said.
Because that is the fact that i get from my observation.
*Not all of them*
I don't have the right to judge them.
But who knows/can be sure which one of them will not do that?
Forgive me for being so negative.

2009-05-05T14:44:00.000-07:00

They come,
They leave,
They left a question mark.

They smile to you today,
They act as if they don't know you the next day.

They like to hint.
They say whatever,
They mean they are not happy with the whatever it is.

They are said to be weaker,
They can destroy man's life.

They claim that men are bad, are cheaters,
They left men dying without even knowing it.

They are the female.
That's what i don't like bout them.

2009-04-12T10:20:00.000-07:00

No pain, No gain
Studying is lotsa hard work.
Sometime i study until i sweat.
Yes, you heard me saying studyy..
Cutting down weight is a painful process.
Exercise=aching, diet=die.
Man are meant to be built tough.
If you don't feel pain, make it pain.

2009-04-11T23:26:00.000-07:00

Sometime i am serious..

Sometime I am happy..

I go crazy at times..

I can be tired too..

Smile even if u're tired..

Be serious to your life,
Be happy all your life,
Go crazy bout your life,
Take a break if u needed to,
Then continue battling with never ending effort..

This is life,
You smile, You laugh, You cry, You sleep, You wake
No matter what, life goes on,
Remember, you're just a human..
There's a limit to everything..
But don't let limitation interfere with what you want to do

2008 passed, now 2009,
I don't regret this life i chose for me..
I know that many things I didn't do,
And many mistake I have made..
But I'll not shame of my past..
The past is myself,
The future is me..
I may not be a successful person yet, but
I'll try to be a better person in days to come..
And I'll not let fear take control of my life,
Push against the limit,
Follow the rules..

Be serious when you work,
Be crazy when you play,
Work hard, play hard,
Go all out.
Smiles.
God bless.

*post taken from 5/01/2008 oldegoisticlioncktee.blogspot.com (edited)*

2009-04-07T10:02:00.000-07:00

Do you get email with message saying stop animal abuse often?
Here you go.
Watch the video.
Do not watch if you think you can't handle this.

Dog as food?

Animal on test

If you think that this is cruel, continue to watch more.
Do not continue if you think you can't handle this.

Fur Industry

Meet your meat part 1

Meet your meat part 2

How?
Enjoy every meals ya?
Fried chicken, Bah kut teh, steak..
Tasty right?
Don't feel too bad about it.
The reason i post this view is to tell people to stop animal abuse.
I did not mean to say stop killing animals.
The reason is, it is not possible.
We were taught to feed on meats for years.
Probably our entire years of living.
The temptations for meats are just too hard to resist.
I am one of those whom hardly survive without meat.
I have the urge for meat all the time.
It's bad but it's not the worst.
The message i try to bring here is,
if you're going to kill animal for food or any other reasons like
for education, or to save life, personally i feel it's not that bad.
Dogs usually are pets to us. I mean most of us here in this country.
In the other hand, dogs can be food just like the pork, lamb, beef, mutton
to certain people.
I don't find anything wrong with eating dogs.
If it is legal in your country.
Just because the puppy is cute, we ask everybody not to eat them.
How bout the pig, chick and fishes that we eat?
Isn't the same?
In certain country, people can't afford to buy fish, pork and chicken like we do.
And to some countries,
it is a custom for them to feed on dogs, cats and etc.
It's the same like any of us.
We are taught to eat pork, lamb, beef, chicken, fishes since young.
That's why we don't feel anything wrong with it. We are used to it.
It's the same in both situations.
And to put animal on experiment, to test on new drugs or medicine,
it's not that bad either.
Look, of course you would not want human to be used in a experiment or test.
I am not fully supporting on this.
But look at the reason why animals are being sacrificed in that way.
For better living i would say.
Or you can say kill to save more life.
It's not right, but i would say it's still okay.

In my opinion,
If you're killing animal for the fur, for decoration, for fun, and for no reason,
It's the worst thing you can do to animals.
Personally i don't support the usage of animal fur except some like sheep fur.
The reason is we eat lamb. And we fully utilize on the other parts.
If you're killing animal just for the fur such as wolf and tiger or crocodile for the skin,
I feel that is not the right thing to do.
You can use so many other products to keep you warm and covered.
Yes, same goes to eating meat. You can eat so many other food to get almost all the
nutrients you need for your body. However, as i said, it's not easy to make yourself a
vegetarian. If you can do it, then it's good.

Beside that, keeping a pet can be bad too.
If you're really determine and sure that you want a pet,
Then do it. No problem.
However you have to take note, once u keep a pet,
It is under your responsibility.
The reason why so many stray dogs going around is because of
the irresponsible owner.
Some people just throw away their pets.
They ended going around mating and causes unnecessary breeding.
Breeding of different types of animal may cause mutation too.
When this animals going around and not taken care of,
They get many diseases.
They even fight with each other to compete for foods and shelters.
Thus, we can't blame government or any other body that catches
these animal and put them to sleep.
It is not wise to simply throw your pets away into the wild.
It may lead to unbalanced ecosystem where some animals
which is more protective are not suppose to be there.
Think before you adopt a pet at home.

It would be the best if you can stop killing animal which i can't.
If you can't, try to stop killing unnecessarily.
For example, try not to killing , snails, flies, ants, rats and etc.
For mosquitoes, if you want to,
i can't blame you because of the risk of sickness you may get.
If possible try not to.
And if you're killing animals, make it easy for them.
Don't play with it.

Take note:
This is based on my personal opinion only.
It can be vary for every person depending on each person's opinions
on what is right and what is wrong.

2009-04-06T11:55:00.000-07:00

I heard this today.
Don't think you pay this much, then u want to get this much.
Coming to college is about learning.
Oh well. I totally agree.
Some people go college just to pass their exam.
They can skip classes and study the 'tip' given.
Some memorize everything in the note and just do the exam.
They only want a certificate that give them better chance of employment.
I'm not saying that is not the purpose for me to go college.
I mean, that is not the only purpose.
I wasted so much time after i finished my secondary school.
I feel there's too little thing that i know.
I don't learn much in schools, as i feel school is just a place for us to build
a foundation for learning.
Same goes to college but we have more of everything.
When i choose to go college, i go with one objective.
Is to learn.
Exam grade is not the main focus.
I am not happy with some lecturer who tells me that
"this is coming out for exam. This is not coming, you read on your own."
Or "i'll just go through briefly since it is not coming out for exam"
Worst when i ask more questions, the lecturer don't explain much and say
"don't worry, this is not coming out for exam".
I am not totally blaming on the lecturer.
Many students only focusing on scoring the exam. Not learning.
Thus, some lecturers are also becoming like them.
I am not saying those lecturers are totally wrong.
Nothing is wrong to tell us which is not coming out for exam.
If she does, then we can focus more on the important one that coming out.
Good.
However, i want more explanation.
As in how to apply what we study.
If we memorize the answer for every question, then we probably can score the exam.
And definitely we'll be good at theory.
Personally i feel that learning is about applying theory that we study in life.
Probably the lecturer get annoyed because i ask too much "if".
I am just throwing out example so that i can know how to manipulate every theory i learn.
I don't care how they look at me.
I am just learning/trying to learn.
I am glad that i have some lecturers who is willing to teach.
Really teach. Dedicated in teaching us.
I am not saying that exam grade is not important but
what's the point of getting a good grade but we don't learn much.
In other hand, what's the point of learning so much but can't score good grade right?
Definitely when you learn, you can get good grade.
I hope that i am not expecting too much from college.

2009-04-05T03:04:00.000-07:00

Other people are weird or am i abnormal?
It doesn't matter, in the end i'm still different.
I used to feel uncomfortable with the fact that i'm not behaving like others.
Then i realize, we can't be caring to much.
We gotta move on.
Just hold on to what you think is right,
even everybody disagree.
However, it's important that whatever you do will not hurt others
and it do not go against the law.
Just make ethical decision, you'll be alright.

2009-04-04T08:18:00.001-07:00

Cooled down.
I play my part.
The respond is not important.
But i played my part.
I am playing my part.
God knows why.

2009-04-04T07:52:00.000-07:00

Feel kinda pissed.
Wonder what the hell is wrong with the people, i call friends?
I know there will be time where everyone gotta separate.
Everyone has they own live and own way.
It's sad to see someone u used to be very closed to,
act like a stranger to you.
I always try to keep everyone near,
By sms, msn, friendster, facebook, blogs or maybe call them out.
It's okay if they're busy.
Let me know,
Then i'll leave them alone.
The worst thing you can get is, u get ignored.
I really hate it when people don't reply sms.
Whether you're coming or not, just reply.
If you're busy, tell me you're busy.
Some people just don't bother.
Sometime, i am just trying to be nice sending sms birthday wishes,
wishing luck, or any kind of wishes.
Just to tell you that i didn't forget you,
In way we can keep in contact.
Some people fucking ignore it.
Maybe i sms wrong number la, that's why no reply.
NAH!!!
Impossible.
I don't mind if i get back "thanks" ONLY for my wishes.
At least got reply.
Or just reply "can't, don't want" when i invite you out.
It's okay to reject my invitation.
I also do not wish that people disturb me when i don't have free time.
I don't mind to be the one who make the first move,
But at least there's respond.
Wtf do i get now?
Ohh, maybe it's my fault for annoying you. Sorry.

2009-03-19T14:01:00.000-07:00

I feel like people hates me when i talk.
I know i talk shits a lot but that's just me.
I don't read a lot, i don't watch news,
I have little knowledge,
I got no facts.
I crap to keep the conversation goes on.
I find myself boring for doing that.
I find that people hates me when i talk.
I should keep myself shut up, i guess.

2009-03-16T10:33:00.001-07:00

Being emo over any situation will not change anything.
If you cry for something that already happened, it will not do any good.
Only if you take a move,
ignore and let go,
don't doubt
and care only for the end result will help you to achieve your goal.
This is a very simple theory applied in military.
Don't care how you do it, the end result is the most important thing.
If the commander asked you to get into the enemy camp,
And the only way to get in is to go in lifeless.
Even you've to sacrifice your life, you still have to do it.
That is highest level method in achieving goals.
If you watch Forest Gump story, he is a so called 'stupid guy'
He did well in his life because he care nothing but only the end result.
He just follow the command.
Someone told him, do not let the ping pong ball drop.
That's how he became a champ ping pong game.
Though end result is the most important, it best you do not
have to sacrifice anyone.
In reality, i would sacrifice anything, anyone by comparing both value.
For instance, I would sacrifice any of my loves one if that can bring more love to the world.
No joke.
To achieve greatness is depending on how much you willing to sacrifice.
If you think it is worth sacrificing, then do it.
This sounded very cold.
I'm not being cruel. I'm just looking at the main picture.
I went to club the other day,
A girl who work as a alcohol seller told me this,
a girl can earn 'fast money', but a man can't.
It's not true.
I gotta admit that if a girl willing to sacrifice more(offering her body for instance)
She can earn more.
A man can't do the same way.
But if a man willing to sacrifice everything he love,
He can do the same thing.
There're many ways men can earn money, illegally.
It's depending how much you willing to give out.
You may lose your freedom and even your life.
Are you willing to sacrifice those thing?
And you'll definitely lose your closed one if you try to do anything illegally.
Ex. You wanted to be an instance millionaire, you can rob a bank.
You may ended up having millions with you.
In this case, you are putting your life at risk. You may die being shot.
After you rob the bank, you got to flee.
You gotta hide, feeling insecure all your live.
You're sacrificing your freedom and your loves.
However you achieved what you wanted. You wanted to be a millionaire.
And you got it. But, worth it?
My main point here is, by weighing both values,
you can make a decision in what to sacrifice in order to achieve your goal.
Is it worth risking? And is it worth sacrificing?
If yes, do it. Think of the effects also.
Then finally, focus only on your main goal.
Forget any other which has lower value compare to your main goal.

Everyone has different opinion about something.
100 people watching a movie may result hundreds type of interpretation of the story.
Every interpretation is correct, depending on how you look at it.

Ignore this if you don't agree. It is just me.

2009-03-16T10:28:00.000-07:00

These are the top 3 things i plan to get within this 6 months.
1) table tennis paddle racket
2) a watch
3) a holiday trip (adventurous or relaxing one)

And 3 years from now, a car which is good enough for me to travel around and for work.

2009-03-11T10:08:00.000-07:00

I found it!!!!!!!

2009-03-11T10:03:00.000-07:00

He said he is coming back.
Lets see..

2009-03-11T08:16:00.000-07:00

How can they be so lucky?
I'm not saying God is bad to me.
Or saying i'm so unlucky.
I'm just jealous that other people got most of what they wanted.
Just a random one...

Mltr-That's why (you go away)

2009-03-04T03:15:00.001-08:00

This is my favourite song. For at least 8 years

2009-03-02T18:46:00.000-08:00

It's been some time since i last enjoyed my night sleep so much.
When i woke up this morning, i opened the windows, took a deep breath.
Very refreshing kind of air, and wind gently blow.
The moment my eye open up wide enough to look at the surrounding better,
a ray of light shine into my room.
Felt warm. Comfortable kind of warmness.
Fantastic moment.

2009-02-25T02:26:00.000-08:00

When i was younger, i used to think i could stop the
Earth from spinning if i want.
I didn't give up the fact that as long i want to do something, i can do it.
I want to keep everything the same.
I'm that kind of person who hate changes eventhough i know only by changing we can explore more and keep improving.
I love to go against the odd.
I wish i could control everything around me like playing a chess game.
However, today i don't feel the same.
Observing the things that changed and continue changing,
makes me feel that my power is limited.
There's no way we could stop the earth from rotating.
Everything moves on, and certain thing will never be the same.
Nothing left, only memories remain.
Now i really knew i can't control over everything.
Perhaps it's a good thing to me. Because i knew i don't have to.
And just, Let it be.

2009-02-20T13:45:00.000-08:00

Too much love to give?
Why not channel those love to ur parents, pets, or the unfortunate one?
Please don't tell me this.
It isn't the same.
Never ask when, where, how, why, what is love?
Once i said, love is only a feeling.
A feeling of emptiness in us.
I still think the same.
Oh well,
I can't explain much.
I'm sure that i wouldn't want to think of this subject
until the day I feel I'm capable of handling it.
Mentally and financially..
Until the day i can sense succession.
If u ask me "do u feel empty or lonely?"
Answer is, "yes i do"
However, there are more for me to achieve before i can fill this space.

Back to basic 'a man must do what men does'
Thank you for remembering this.

New life in MMU

2009-02-19T01:43:00.000-08:00

This is the 3rd week since my college started.
College life is not easy for me.
I got lots to catch up.
The last time i study was 2007.
Then i spent my 1 whole year doing nothing.
It's kinda hard for me to cope up especially certain
subjects that i don't even know what is it about.
For this trimester, i registered for 5 subjects. Total of 15 credit hours.
I thought it'll be easy for me as it's only 15 CH.
However, when classes started, i'm busy like hell..
With no basic in art-subjects, plus i didn't study well in school,
I'm left behind.
Especially maths.
Topic 1 and 2 is exactly what we learn in school.
But i can't recall anything i learn.
Probably because i didn't learn much in school.
Comes to Microeconomics, i'm totally 'kong'.
I got my first Econs assignment in my first lecture.
I was like 'shit!'.
I don't even know what is Microeconomics.
Business management is quite easy for me as the lecturer use
examples that i can relate to real life.
It's easy to understand but i having hard time to remember the theories.
English is quite okay, just need a lot of reading and
practice to improve vocabulary and grammar.
And i got a funny lecturer for Computer Application.
She teach super fast.
Then she'll keep saying it's very easy.
Since everything is easy for her, she thinks that it's easy for us too.
I don't remember a single thing i learn in that class.
Basically to survive in college you need to do a lot of self studies.
However, for my case, by the time i understand topic 1, they already cover till topic 3.
Plus assignments and presentations. I don't have much time left for revision.
I don't even have the time to go out for a drinking session with friends.
You can imagine me not going out from house for 1 week?
I'm so used to lepak every single night and now for weeks i'm going to stay at home.
Oh well, i go to library very often.
For the first time. I've never been to library to study in my schooling life.
And.. Mid term is on March.
Bout the life style here,
I can say Malacca people concern bout cleanliness.
Back in Klang, u can see rubbish along the road.
In Malacca, u can see rubbish bins along the road.
Weather in Malacca is not so hot compare to Klang.
And the food here is quite cheap.
Mixed rice(economic rice) with 2 dishes, 1 meat and
1 veges will probably cost you bout RM3-4.
Sometime RM2.50-RM3.00 depending on what dish you take.
I'm not too sure bout the restaurants in town la, i am talking bout restaurant around MMU.
I don't cook at home because it's cheaper to eat outside.
Don't need to wash all the cooking equipment and tools.
That's all for now la.
Oh ya, i use mandarin more than english to communicate with friends here.
Which is a good thing. I'm learning to speak Mandarin.

Family

2009-02-13T03:10:00.000-08:00

A few hours later, i'll be back to Klang.
I just watched a video on how a dad who is willing for
run miles despite his old age and heart disease just to
accomplish his child's dream and hope.
It really touches me.
It reminds me of home.
Reminds me of my family.
I really feel like going home immediately to take a look at them.
I did too much mistakes in my life.
My family have too much of disappointment.
After so much promises that i make, all the sweet promises i make,
I've never fulfill any one of it.
I told them i'll and i could but I've never.
Every time i realize i make a mistake, i'll promise myself not to do it again.
But i did another mistake the following day.
Remembering all the sacrifices my parents made,
It make me feels so sorry for them.
For breaking their heart.
Even though they're not well educated, they don't have much,
But they gave me what they could,
They teaches me what you know.
Everything.. full of love.
Everyone in my family put high hopes on me,
Hoping that one day i could be someone successful.
I felt so guilty thinking of this.
I wish i could remember this moment for the rest of my life.
I wish i can think of my family first before commit another mistake.
I've made it all the way here to further my studies all
because everyone of my family members.
I pray for one thing now.
I pray that everyone of my family members blessed with happiness.
That's all i wish for.

Pretenders

2009-02-09T02:34:00.001-08:00

It's kinda funny when u realize that u're growing/aging.
I read some of the post i posted in www.oldegoisticlioncktee.blogspot.com
It's really funny to see how innocent or rather naive we're.
But i also realize there is something that is missing..
When we're young, we do treat people with all our heart.
I'm not saying that we don't now.
But when we're younger, we never care what other people might think.
If you don't like a person, you'll just tell him ' i don't like you'
When we grow up, we start to be a faker.
Not only to other people, but to ourselves too.
We always jaga muka, or simpan macho..
That we're no longer behaving like ourselves.
Everything should be balanced.
Faking and pretending can be a form of respect for others.
But over do it might hurt the people u love.

2009-02-06T02:39:00.000-08:00

I'll revive this blog.
I think it's easier to keep in contact this way

2008-11-26T09:25:00.000-08:00

Offer your heart.

2008-11-24T08:50:00.000-08:00

To tell the truth,
I always look down at most of the people around me.
I did not tell, but my heart says it. 'You sucks'.
For the past few months, i kept asking myself
"who are you today?, and what have you done?, how bout tomorrow?"
There're time when i feel proud of myself.
But ims that really good enough?
I felt i wasted my time.
I could have done so much better.
So many chances.
I realize this long time ago.
And again and again and again,
Same mistake repeated.
Frus.
I remember i saw this quote in my friend's phone.
"why do we need tomorrow if we're not learning today?"
True. Why do we need tomorrow if we are not improving?
Like what i always say, I know i know and i know.
I know i gotta move on, i know i shouldn't waste time.
I know i know i know.
But i don't know right now!
No idea how i feel right now.

Changing

2008-11-22T12:29:00.000-08:00

You gotta change as the world changes.
Go against it,
The world will deny you,
End up you gain nothing. Then lose something.
Unless you change, lose everything to gain something.
The point is, are you willing to let go?
Or else forget about it.
There's no way to make everyone happy.

2008-11-21T11:38:00.000-08:00

I promise.

2008-11-21T11:31:00.001-08:00

What matters in the end?

2008-11-14T10:47:00.000-08:00

Ignore anyone who tells you that your idea is unrealistic.
If you are willing to put in the efforts to make it happen,
then who are they to stop you?

T&C= You work for it

The journey

2008-11-13T11:55:00.000-08:00

Save the world

2008-11-13T03:55:00.000-08:00

I never went to college
I don't have a degree
Let's say I went to night school
I learned all I know on the streets
I wasn't born a rich man
I ain't got no pedigree
The sweat on this old collar
That's my Ph.D.

It comes down to this
I wouldn't exist
Without you it ain't worth the grind
I'd fight for one kiss
On a night like this
You make me feel I could fly, like

I could save the world
Since the night your love saved me
Maybe I can't save the world
But as long as you believe
Maybe I could save the world

I got to confess
Sometimes I'm a mess
And sometimes I step out of line
Like this old tattoo
I ain't shiny or new
With you by my side nothing matters

I can save the world
Since the night your love saved me
Maybe I can't save the world
But as long as you believe
Maybe I can save the world

They can say it's blind love
But it's a fool who don't believe
That I'd fly all the way to the moon
Just to walk you down your street

I can save the world
Since the night your love saved me
Maybe I can't save the world
But as long as you believe
Our love is even stronger
Than god hoped it could be
Baby, all it takes is
Just a little faith in me
To feel like
I can save the world
I can save the world

2008-11-08T11:30:00.000-08:00

I realize that i changing more and more each day.
I already lose that kind of patience i have..
Sometime, a small thing can trigger my anger.
Changes is a good or bad thing??
I don't know.
Good and bad in a way..
I also realize the importance of speaking proper language.
I know i'm sucks...
Lately i'm feeling old.
Old as in outdated.
Physically and also mentally.
Maybe i would feel better after a long break.
Hopefully God open a way for me.
Perhaps, i should open my eye bigger,
And search the right road to go..

2008-11-08T10:34:00.000-08:00

It's broken.
I really feel the pain the moment it broken in my hand.
I got stunted for seconds before i could say a word.
Even though i act as if i don't care at all,
I really do feel the pain.
It the only item i bought using my own hard earn money.

2008-11-03T06:40:00.000-08:00

Outdated. Lost. I'm through.

2008-11-02T21:18:00.000-08:00

Don' t you ever cry.

2008-10-18T14:46:00.000-07:00

Not a big thing..
but the moment you handling 300++ people with your command,
That's kinda feeling is indescribable..

2008-10-10T10:12:00.001-07:00

It feels like someone is squeezing my balls..
This always happen..
Rich bastards look at us (poor) like a small fart.
You bastards are really so bastard.
Don't think that you so damn good because you're up,
I'll be there someday but i'll not be a bastard.
Because i hate bastard like you, bastard.

2008-10-03T03:41:00.000-07:00

Freaking tired...
I just woke up.. it's 3.34am now..
I slept 8 pm yesterday right after my dinner..
The day before i went out with friends to Station 1 till late night.
And we played black jack that make me laugh until my face muscle cramp.
Stupid stupid game.
After 2 hours sleep, go work at 6 am.
Work work work,
Reach home at 6 pm.
Had dinner, straight go to bed..
Hahh..
Damn tired..
Now kinda hanging..

2008-09-26T01:14:00.000-07:00

The process and the result are equally important.
Would you want to achieve everything you dream of,
but lose everything you have?
It's time to be a smart monkey, not to hold too tight on something,
If you gotta let it go, get loose,
But doesn't mean you gotta give up your principle and dream.
Be firm, play smart, be good,
Give out your heart.
You'll be alright.
You gotta use your fist and brain too...
They're good partner.
Don't keep you brain in the backside.
Key word: BALANCE

The Monkey Trap

2008-09-26T00:53:00.000-07:00

In Malaysia, monkeys are caught in a very special way.
The trapper first takes a coconut.
He then makes a hole in its side just big enough for a
hand to go through when it is not a fist.
He then places some peanuts in the coconut and
puts it in a spot where monkeys usually pass.
Before leaving the coconut behind,
he spreads some peanuts around the coconut.

Sooner or later, a curious monkey comes by.
It first eats the peanuts on the ground.
It then easily finds the coconut and sees that it is full of peanuts.
It puts its hand into the hole to help itself to the peanuts,
but it is not able to withdraw its fist from the hole. It get stuck.
It struggles and pulls hard, but it cannot get free.
It cries out loudly and becomes more and more anxious.
All the monkey has to do is leg go of the peanuts to get free,
but it does not want to do that.

Finally, of course, it gets caught by the trapper.
In the same way, we are like that monkey. Somehow.
The moral of the story is up to you,
what you understand from the story and how you apply it.

2008-09-23T10:00:00.000-07:00

Some people are born sucking golden key in the mouth
(direct translation from Cantonese)
Some are born to be small fella..
Like i used to think and always say..
Those who born smart are lazy,
those who born stupid are hardworking,
those who born smart and hardworking cannot live long,
those who born stupid and lazy better go die,
I think the best type is to be smart enough to be lazy,
and stupid enough to be hardworking.
I am none of above, considered retarded.
Joking la..
I feel i am the stupid type one..
Stupid enough..
But i still believe in one thing,
Since i don't born with millions dollar in my account,
Since i don't the luck that some people have,
I better rely on myself,
Head must be strong enough,
Fist must be hard enough.
I know i know i know.
You think i just say only right?
Who don't know TCK stand for Talk Cock King.
But it's okay.
This is for myself.

Unintended

2008-09-19T18:04:00.000-07:00

2008-09-12T10:29:00.000-07:00

Changes to come..

2008-09-03T07:13:00.001-07:00

Life kinda stable since i started my work.
Most of the days i just wake up, eat, work, back, eat, sleep.
Off day, go out with friends for drink.
I guess some people might find this type of life rather boring.
No?
I do.
But what to do?
Nothing else i can do right now.
At least for now, get some blardy money and some blardy experience
meeting some blardy people in this blardy world.
Seriously there're lots of weird people in the world.
For me, its really a good experience meeting those fools out there.
Had a good laugh.
Update more when i free la.

Perfectionist.

2008-08-21T11:21:00.000-07:00

Is there a meal that satisfy you, that you'll never eat again?
Is there such a answer that answer all questions perfectly?
Is there such a word that describe everything?
Is there such a thing that give u all the pleasure that you want?
Is there such a job that earn you as much as you want?
Is everything you want is perfect?
Want to be perfect?
Think like a perfectionist.
But how perfect can perfect be?
When can you have everything, what's the point you live?
But when you know you never get everything, then what's the point you live too?
Being perfect is perfect, but being imperfect makes you perfect too?
Told you no words can describe everything perfectly.
Life's a bitch.
But we love this bitch once a while.
But still longed to be as perfect as we can't.
Stupidity take place.
You're right if you think you're.
You're right too if you doubt.
Nothing is right, nothing is wrong.
We're only human.

2008-08-21T11:01:00.000-07:00

Sorry, I've talked too much.
One day, one day.
Ain't a big empty can.
I believe that.
One day, one day.
It'll be different.
Ain't beside the road.
One day, one day.
Standing right in front of you.

2008-08-10T03:19:00.000-07:00

I love to talk cock.
But i do mean what i said.
I can't achieve what i said i wanted to.
But i did try.
I don't just say thing that think of,
I say thing that i think it is.
My thoughts always change, my opinion always change,
But right at that moment, i meant what i said.
I don't say like i just say it, i meant what i said.

Do what you think is right, good enough.

2008-08-07T21:00:00.000-07:00

I just decided to work harder in my current job,

I tagged 'balance' in my msn personal message yesterday..

And i got this today..

Friendster Horoscope

for August 7, 2008

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

The Bottom Line

If your career is your main focus now, switch it. Focus more on your private life.

In Detail

If growing your career is your main focus right now, you should consider switching your sights to another area of your life. Being too obsessed by your job and where you want to go next with it is creating an imbalance in your life. Friends and family members will start to feel neglected if you're canceling your time with them in favor of working later or showing up at work events for the sake of brownie points with the boss. You are a multi-faceted person, and you need to stay that way!

It just hit at the right point today.

2008-07-24T16:32:00.000-07:00

Friendster Horoscope

for July 24, 2008

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

The Bottom Line

Start discovering new interests. Your life is about more than meeting other people.

In Detail

Your recent attempts to catch the eye of that certain someone haven't been as successful as you had hoped they would be, and it's time to realize that you should move on. The more energy you waste on someone who isn't responsive, the less energy you have to start discovering new interests. Your life is about way more than having a relationship or getting someone to notice you. Think more about pleasing yourself right now -- and less about pleasing others.

2008-07-22T19:54:00.000-07:00

If you sit and wait to do something you think that you might save some time..
You probably wasting more time..
Go do what you gotta do..
Just do it.

2008-07-18T12:16:00.000-07:00

Can anybody sum up everything, and put LIFE in one word?
Only one word..
Can you tell me?
I wanna know your opinion..

2008-07-18T09:55:00.000-07:00

This morning is not a bright morning for me..
I felt pain..
I should have listened and believe it..
I should have accepted it earlier..
Today I found the truth,
It proved to be true..
It hurts..
But at least one pain killed..
I'm sure that is a good thing..
At least I'm not stuck in this anymore..
Woo hoo!

No more butterfly in stomach..

Standing In The Eyes Of The World

2008-07-17T20:04:00.000-07:00

2008-07-17T09:27:00.000-07:00

What the hell is wrong, people?
Why can't I be the best for you?
Why would you compare me with other?
Me is me larh.. wth?
Wth? Why not ask why i not so smart like Einstein?
Why can't i be so rich as Bill Gates?
Or maybe Donald Trump?
They also have 2 hands and 2 legs like me whut..
Wth?
They're smarter, richer, hardworking got no business with me..
Why am I being compared to them?
Ass la..
I just want to make you proud.. that's all.
Everyone started their studies..
I am not..
Then I am wrong..
People smarter..
Its my fault..
I can only be those loser..
Never be like those winner..
When other people fail to do that way..
Then i can never do it right..
When all people doing the same thing,
I am the odd one..
Means i'm wrong..
You people only expecting the best of me..
Expecting me to be perfect..
Did you ever think of how perfect can I be?
Your expectation is higher than all mountains...
Whenever i don't do the things that the other do, i'm weird..
How weird is that?
You want me to be like the others?
Of course I do want to make it up to you...
Being the best of the best..
I have my own way of thinking..
I can't just follow any other kids do..
Score the exam with flying colors and get scholarship,
Or get a loan and start my college.
Then finish studies..
Work and work and work..
Get marry, have a couple of children,
And end my life watching them grow..
Wth?
I'm not saying I don't want to study..
I'm not saying I don't want to work..
I'm not saying I don't want to have a family
I didn't..
Why can't you people listen and support me anyway...
I just do it different way..
I know the same answer I'll get..
"how you wan people to believe you? remember what you said before SPM?"
"You said you're okay, you'll do well.. but ended up.. shit happened.."
Yes, shits happen.. and i do regret..
But so what?
So what if i fail another time?
I hate to fail too..
I hate to risk, but i still taking risk..
I am weird to you people.. but I don't see anything abnormal..
But i just don't like to be any other people..
I feel I can do it my way..
Even if fail.. proven that i'm wrong..
But so what?
What for you people keep pushing me?
Asking me just make it simple..
I can only say that, see things differently..
And I'm just me..
I didn't ask much..
I just want support and blessing..
Why can't i have that?
Why??
Don't ask me what do I want?
I can only tell you, I don't know..
Then Don't tell me that if you do know, go study..
I'll do what I feel like doing..
People will think i'm irresponsible..
Why didnt think of family?
I had enough headache thinking how to please everyone..
Ended up, I can't satisfy myself..
And I say.. I don't know what I want..
But don't compare me with other people..
I'll do something..
The more I say, the more I confuse..
If can, I wanna be everything..
I want to please everyone, at the same time do what I want..
I want to have everything to be perfect, at the same time I don't get all I wanted,
Coz it will be bored that way..
So now, I don't know what I want..
I'm sorry..
Confused..
I don't know larrr...

Love everybody.

2008-07-16T13:26:00.000-07:00

You have heard it said..
''You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy."

But i say to you,
"Love your enemy and pray for those who persecute you".

For if you only love those who love you..
What reward is there in that?

(TPOTC)

The 'gift'

2008-07-15T21:00:00.000-07:00

One day, an angry man with a bad mouth went to see the wise man.

He used many bad words and said many bad things to the wise man.

The wise man listened to the man patiently and quietly.

He did not say anything while the man spoke.

The angry man finally stopped speaking.

The wise man then asked him;
"if someone wants to give you a gift, but you don't want to accept it, whose gift is it?"

The angry man answered;
"Of course it belongs to the person who tried to give it away in the first place."

"Well," the wise man said,
"I don't accept your bad words, and so they belong to you.
You'll have to keep this gift of bad words that you tried to give to me.
And I'm afraid that in the end you will be an unhappy man.

A bad man who speaks badly of a good man can only bring unhappiness to himself.
It's as if a man wanted to dirty the sky by spitting at it.
His spittle could never make the sky dirty.
Instead it would fall back down on his own face and dirty him.

(the Buddha)

And if you can take or refuse to accept 'gift' from people,
Why do you keep 'the broken gift'?
If it's a broken one, don't take it.
If it's a good one, accept it and thank him.

Definitely not easy.
Ego, pride, anger often over control us.

December 31st 2008

2008-07-15T09:35:00.000-07:00

6months to decide..
I mean 6 months will decide..
Oh.. actually this 6 months decide for me..
The thing i like?
The thing i good at?
or The thing i want?
Lets see..

MLTR-The Ghost Of You

2008-07-13T11:11:00.000-07:00

Saturday day

2008-07-13T10:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,
I'm supposed to reach BB at 9 am..
But i'm late because i didn't plan for transportation ealier..
When i reached, the drill test started..
All of them take their theory paper until 10 am.
Then, Joe, Michael, and me take over the basic practical drill test.
Some jokers really make a joke out of themselves..
In the afternoon, they started Guard Of Honor practice right after devotion..
Then run a full rehearsal with Color Party..
Vesper and off parade..
People continue with basketball game..
While i wasn't in the mood..
I sat a side and watched..
Right after i took off my uniform..
I felt my body so weak..
My shoulder and and arm is so heavy..
Feel like going to sleep only..
Follow Win Sun's car and reached home at 7,30pm..
Bath, dinner, and sleep at 8..
It's not a good day for me..

Suicidal desire

2008-07-13T10:09:00.000-07:00

How tired can a person be?
Doing work doesn't make you as tired as you don't do anything but think so much..
Physically tired, 1 good night sleep will do..
Mentally tired got no cure..
Only drugs can numb you for a while..
I am so tired..
I fall back and lay down..
Seriously sick.. mentally..
Thinking what you want can kill already..
The same question repeating..
What do you want?
Maybe because too many things that i wanted..
Desire kills..
There's a hole in me..
Nothing that can fill it..
I keep thinking what are the things that make it complete..
One perfect thing that make it all happen..
End up, i get nothing..
Some things i want, but i don't want..
Its like..
If i get it, i won't be happy..
Buf if i don't, it hurts..
Either way i won't like it..
I'm really stuck in this feeling..
I hate who i am
I not willing to let go.. that's the main factor..
To the things that i know i couldn't get,
To the things that i know i wouldn't want,
I want to keep everything with me,
I want to have everything..
I want 'PERFECTION'
But think of it, if everything perfect,
Then this world gonna be very dull..
I know that..
But i still want it..
But i don't want this world to be dull too..
See how complicated is my brain?

Right now, the only way to get this over is to get a job..
Keep myself busy and forget the world around..

2008-07-13T09:47:00.000-07:00

Be fair to me pls.
I just don't know how to show my anger..
But that doesn't mean i am not..

2008-07-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

I got lots of thing to say...
But i don't know how/where to start..
I just replaced my pc keyboard with a new one.. i spoiled the old one..
Talking bout keyboard.. i got it from Jeremy's aunty's shop in Bukit Tinggi..
And celebrated Jeremy's birthday in Jeth.. not really celebrate la..
Just another drinking session..

two 08 July baby that i know..

Jeremy Tham..

When we were young.. 4 years back..

Yeap Li Sa

Use this photo again.. this is the only one i have.. ps..

Just a simple wish from me..
Hope you guys enjoy your life..
God bless.
Happy Birthday.

Feeling of the day..

2008-06-26T14:02:00.000-07:00

I wanna say that i am just like any other men..
I bleed the same way that they do..
Maybe I look tough and strong.. maybe..
But I'm human race.. Have a heart..
I know I behave abnormally, my thinking different from others..
I telling you.. i am still a man after all..
My patience has its own limit.. pls dont cross the line..

2008-06-26T14:00:00.000-07:00

Is it a crime to love?

2008-06-24T10:18:00.000-07:00

Thanks that I'm alive. It's better than anything.

2008-06-23T15:27:00.000-07:00

I'm going crazy thinking bout my life right now..
Can anyone provide me 'temporary mind eraser soup'????
Do not ask why..
One question that can never solve.. "What i want?"

Butterfly

2008-06-23T15:25:00.000-07:00

I made the biggest mistake in my life..
That is to fall in love..
I never thought i would again since the last time i did..
But again.. it repeated by itself..
I tell you, i hate to fall in love..
That love feeling can make a person go crazy..
I had some sweet night mare..
It was a sweet dreams.. but it was a nightmare to me too..
I wish i could just forget and concentrate on the things i'm doing..
But i can't..
Love, Is a feeling that you can't deny..
I wish i could forget what is love..
Or I wish i never know what is love...
No matter how hard you try to escape from it,
It'll hunt you to wherever you're..

Many people asked,
What is so hard bout love?
Just go and love and be happy..
For me its just not so easy..
I think of many things..
To love is to make her happy..
But i am not that kind of fun person..
I always with rule..
I am straight..
I just don't know how to make people feel happy..
If i trying to get her, in the end, i'll only hurt her..

For me, she's like a butterfly
It need freedom..
It's nice to look at it flying wild and free..
But you can't keep it in a container..
It will die..
I don't know..
Now what i trying to do is..

*is to let it go**correction= is to let it be wherever it belongs.. i haven't even own it)

*i do not wish to be butterfly catcher*
it's too selfish..

I don't know how to love and make people happy..
Keeping her with me will only hurt her..

*just hope that she can be happy flying wild and free*

Many people say girl is everywhere..
If you don't get this one,
Forget it and get another one..
But i am just me.. plainly stubborn..

* for me, girls will come along your way..
but once u found the special one, that's the one..
What's the point having so many when you don't get the one you love?

When you found the right one, you'll be blinded.. the only one you see is her..

It's not easy for me to say let it go..
But i got no choice..
You can stop yourself from doing anything,
But you can never stop your heart from feeling anything..
Nor stop your brain from thinking anything..

What i can do now is to pray for her happiness..

*pray that she found the right one who can bring her happiness*

I trying to get any sympathy by posting this or what..
or I'm saying i sacrifice for love.. no no..
I just wanna say i would rather hurt myself than to ever see anyone cry..
Maybe this will be the last time i would say i fall in love until don't know when..
Now i can't do anything already..
Just hope that i can do well in my career..
I sounded very childish here.. but..
I'll not care how people look and think bout me..
I'll say what i want, and do what i want.

PLKN kump.2 siri5, thn 2008. Kem Bakau Resort

2008-06-23T15:00:00.000-07:00

I attended the National Service Program on 19 march..
I were sent to the Kem Bakau Resort in kerteh, Terengganu...
3 months is not that long.. and kinda flexible over here compare to other camp..
i'll show some pictures..

Full ceremonial uniform..-full celoreng..

In the temple during Wesak..

A walk to the Jeti..

At the beach..

In front of the temple..

In-camp Buddhist class

Smart boy..

Head of Wira and me..

Community service..

Awards

A group of people..

With teachers from temple..

Funny people..

Daughters and son..

End of story,.. closing ceremony..

I didn't become my true self in the camp..
It was a big lie..
Just hope that nobody get hurt during the camp..
I wish forget everything..
even though i know i never could..
I kinda miss the people in the camp..
But everyone has their own way to go..
So, take care people..
Now i'm back to the earth, to the place where i belong..
But still hope to keep in contact with the people in camp..

I find myself changed a lot since i came back from camp..
Not only physically, but my thinking as well..
I've different way of thinking, different way of talking..
And different attitude..
Hope that is not a bad thing..

2008-03-17T11:35:00.000-07:00

Farewell..
All the best people..

2008-02-22T20:49:00.000-08:00

I am sorry..
I didn't meant it..
I didn't mean to blame on anyone..
Part of it is my fault..
Sorry.

2008-02-22T04:42:00.000-08:00

When can I become somebody?
Parents complain everyday almost on everything..
I sleep, they complain..
I go out, they complain..
I stay at home, they complain..
I eat, they complain..
I don't eat they also complain..
I don't do anything also.. they making hell lot of noise..
What do parents expect?
Why do they like to compare?
They always ask why other people like this like that..
Why can't I be like them?
Then why not change their child instead..
I am so frustrated with myself..
I am confused..
I finding solution..
And yet.. they making lotsa noises everyday..
I felt irritated so much..
I wish I can just burst it out..
Shout at them, asking what do they really want from me?
Hell ya..
I am so pissed that I wanna scream at everything on earth..
But I won't because I am not that type of person..
SPM result is coming out..
I don't know what will happen on that day..
For now, I have little time to make a real big decision..
I lost right now and feel like screwing everybody up..
Enough of it..